Just call me Jamma. Not looking for much in this world except to write, be musical, draw and play video games. I’m a taurus and I’m a lefty. I believe in Christ and love God.
Love Peace and Soul
You can catch me on
Deviantart, Aim, and Facebook.
http://kendallchiq.deviantart.com/
Tired of being the second person with that same old third wheel. Tired of always being left out of the loop. Tired of being treated like a doll. Tired of always being dragged in to another world vut no one wants to venture in mine. Tired of being blown off. If u think this is about u. It is. Its jever about me with u. Maybe im just too selfish.
i hate it when i feel icky and disgusting and don’t know what’s wrong. Right now i feel icky and disgusting and it feels like life isn’t worth living. I’ve made so many mistakes and i’ve been so clingy and weird and obsessed over one or two guys. With out knowing why i’m compelled to feel guilty for hanging on to them. i’m compelled to never want to here them talk about me in public. i keep seeing flash backs of dirty looks and disregard. i keep going back to those moments. it’s killing me on the inside it really is. because i can’t let it go and wont go away.
at the same time if someone started to talk to me at this moment. I’d give them a smile, I’d act normal. yet on the inside i just feel dead. am i bipolar…?
I’m human and the more alone i am with my thoughts. the sadder i feel. the more i try to busy myself the more tired i get. i can’t relax. i can’t.
